“Struggling with Depression? Let me share with you what I do in order to overcome mine..”
The Reality of Depression
It’s been many months since I’ve blogged, and there’s a reason: I’ve been depressed. Please understand I’m not putting this on Facebook for sympathy. I don’t like it when people post thinly-veiled bids for sympathy on their Facebook page. I never respond to those, unless it’s to offer them real help, help which they rarely take me up on because it means doing some challenging work.
Many of you would no doubt be surprised to know that I’ve been depressed. It doesn’t show, usually, not because I’m covering it up, but rather because I have tools that I use today to manage it. And these tools work. Over the next few weeks, I’m going to be sharing with you the things I do to manage the condition.
I’m doing this because I know, for a fact, that MANY of you struggle with depression. I also know that many others who don’t, have trouble understanding it. I want to help people both groups, and I want to share with those who struggle with it what I do to alleviate the symptoms.
Please respect that I will be taking down any sympathy/empathy posts made on my blogs. Again, keep in mind that this blog series isn’t a bid for attention. This is about sharing a story of hope so that those who struggle with depression might see a light at the end of the tunnel. It’s also meant to help give some insight in to the illness to friends and family of those who struggle like I do.
Who Am I?
I’m a personal trainer serving Mississauga, Oakville, Burlington, Brampton, Toronto and the entire GTA. I offer weight loss coaching and life coaching services as well. My mission is to help you to become the very best you that you can be! Therefore I want to talk frankly about depression, because it holds more people back from excelling than many of us might realize.
I finally figured out that I was depressed in 1996. This is when I was officially diagnosed with what they now call MDD: “Major Depressive Disorder.” I was also diagnosed as “Bipolar,” and was put on several different medications to deal with both conditions.
What I didn’t realize about myself, until the diagnosis, was that I had always struggled with both depression and anxiety. To me, to feel depressed and anxious seemed normal. After all, it was my reality, so why wouldn’t it? I mean, didn’t everyone face every day feeling scared and unhappy? I believed that was just part of the human condition.
The Addiction Cycle
At age 11, I discovered the answer to depression/anxiety: alcohol. In high school, drugs would also become a part of that story, along with promiscuity and overeating. Together I used these 4 things to manage how I felt. For the most part I was reasonably happy throughout high school, simply because I was covering up my real feelings, rather than dealing with them.
By the time University came around, the 4 “solutions” I relied on so heavily weren’t working so well any more. Drinking every day now fuelled the depression, rather than alleviating it. Overeating increased and controlling my weight now became a problem: this, of course, affected my self-worth and self-esteem. Promiscuity led to hurt feelings and anger, which made my life still more unmanageable.
Be sure to watch for my next blog on this important topic. I’ll tell you how bad it got, but also what I did to break the cycle!